Njan arun

I am a 21 year old boy now. When I was 17 I thought a 21 year person will be an elder person, a man. But still I can call me a boy. Even if I am 21, my mental condition is like, I just left +2 yesterday. May be it is because I am studying in the same class with same group of people around me for the last 4 years. May be it is because I am not feeling any progress in ma physical and mental conditions. 4 years ago I was a student. Still I am a student with uniform and bag. But it does not mean that there is no change for me in the last 4 years. The last page of ma diary of each page shows my change in tastes, change in attitude. The things which were big things in past have become small things right now. When I consider myself as a human being.. I don’t know which category I belongs to. I am an emotionless selfish and hardhearted son. At the same time I am an emotionally weak, sensitive, softhearted and possessive friend. I can hurt my mom with hard w

i am telling this from ma own experience...taken from ma life ,s o this page may contain blood stain.. don't afraid. it was 2 long long ago, almost 4 years before.i didn't obey ma mom .but i have to suffer for that for rest of ma life. let me tell you i didnt realize the great options of good things in her suggestion. i really feel that i could ve took that way. but i realized this after 4 years. so now you might have thinking what happened. let me tell you with a brief introduction. i visited a manufacturing company and a medical college for various purposes. both are different job sectors. i speak with the staff of both organizations,with youngsters.hospital staff was happy. there was work load, stress and all. but there is  options for entertainment. can talk with people. many people from out side will come. also lady staff.. so nice.. i love that atmosphere very much. with a small tear in heart i came out from there. manufacturing company, so funny.. the boys were so ne