Njan arun

On the way back I told him the flux thing. And I was so stressed to tell him the rest. But I can’t say it. Damn, I was scared and confused. He noticed my condition. He asked me the reason. I kept silent. So he asked me. “She loves me, right? “  I looked at him with my wide opened mouth. He continued “I know it man, she says NO because she loves me. Whenever she is rejecting me she is telling me from her heart that she loves me a lot. I could feel it man. And that’s a great feeling” I said “she told me that she can’t say no anymore, so please stop proposing her” He thought for a while and said. “This is how vinayakan lives and enjoy his life. This proposing and rejection is the driving force in my life. But, I will try to stop. ”  Rest of the journey both of us was silent. Both of us where thinking about the same person. One day she left the world. I thought there will be another treat for that. But i was not in a mind condition to take part in that party. But in the hospital

    Shikha. A pretty young girl. Even if we get in to her room she didn't tried to stand or even sit on the bed where she was laying. As he had told me she was educated and wealthy. But she didn't accepted vinayakan’s proposal yet. In my view he has no problem. He was great. But she had a little problem. Her legs were gone, it Happened in an accident. There was some serious injury for her spinal cord, so dead can capture her at any moment. Because of all these she was not ready to become his lover. But his words were too nice "if i'm not getting something in first attempt, it makes me more thrilled... i feel to capture that somehow, till i feel that i don’t deserve it."    He tried a lot to impress her. But she didn't accept him. She was there with a home nurse. She just be there in that bed with some books. She always looks out through the window. The scene is so beautiful. A wet green bed of nature with a misty blanket.    Her birthday was celebrated

    When i reached there he was admitted there after a street fight. After some time i realize that the other participant of that fight was in more bad condition.     After his discharge we went for a long drive. He was always amazing. I ask him why you are putting yourself in to troubles.     He smiled and said “life is so boring without problems...! If there is nothing to achieve or nothing to solve, why should i live more..."     Those made me think for a while. That philosophy was very different from mine. I fell he is right. Leading a purposeless meaningless life is equal to death. So I’m leading a dead life.      Soon a beggar pulled back my philosophical thoughts. When i was about to give him the coins, vinayakan told me to stop. He asked the beggar "if i saw you begging again, i will bent your next leg too" he started begging again to him "sir sir, what sir, my one leg is bent and I’m illiterate. What can i do else...please sir" he smiled “you sea

All Kerala vinayakan fans association only member: me i am a big fan of myself    This was written on a 10 feet tall multi-color flux board. A 22-25 year young man's photo was on that flux. Talking about the beauty of his face, it was enough for someone to get frightened at the first sight. I saw this when i was on the way to my friend's home to take part in some special alcoholic festival. There i meet the character, the hero of the story, vinayakan. The treat was for his latest successful love sacrifice. He never gives treat when someone accepts his proposal, or some girl dare to propose her. The treat is only for the failure. He loves to celebrate his failures.      Each time the reason was different. He will lost interest on love very fast, so he will make a space and allow the girl to make a reason for breakup. So then the magic will happen, she will realize that they are of same age so she will got married soon, or they are of different financial background, or he